Letting Go

(Post written at 3.30 in the morning under that influence that makes everything seem clearer...)

In the beginning i kept the void. The hope. Then just the memory...

To give someone your whole heart and have it returned because it's too big. Because allegedly it didn't fit...

To call your entire love life "a short history of abandonment"...

To have someone to help you sleep. Embrace and regular breathing being the only two requirements...

To go from green lights everywhere to red lights or no lights at all. To feel all roads closed...

To be always an option never a priority. To be expandable...

Sole/Best Facebook advice: never allow yourself to become the above...

To hang not on others love for you but on your love for others. To never cease being disappointed...

3 years ago i was surrounded by 30 people at my b-day. 2 showed up 1 year ago. None this year. Still they're the ones who got upset for removing them from my life...

To have a loved one sending you an invitation to an iPhone app which allows them to store your birth day. To have that person's birth day engraved on your heart...

The only search that should never stop is not for friends or soul mates but for ourselves... I finally know i was conducting the wrong search...

The hardest thing in life is acceptance. Of failure, of circumstances, of yourself...

To keep a memory of someone who sleeps happily in the arms of another. To keep a memory of someone for whom you're not even a memory...

Letting go is not about letting go to an absent other. Letting go is about letting go to yourself. Erasure of who you were. Not of your memories but of the meaning you gave to those memories...

Acceptance. Moving on. Finally getting free...